Anonymous Admiration

Little messages from big hearts.

Kyra K.

Thank you, not just for being the friend I wanted, but also for being the friend I needed.

FIRSTLY SORRY FOR SENDING YOU TO THE OFFICE IN GRADE 7 FOR TAKING MY PENCIL AHAHAHAHHAHAA. LOOK MAN YOU ARE ONE OF THE GREATEST FRIENDS I HAVE EVER HAD AND I LOVE HANGING OUT WITH YOU. THANK YOU FOR ALL YOUR MOVIES, TV SHOW AND GAME RECS.

I hope you enjoy school this year and also get good grades! Make a lot of friends, and talk with them. Time is not forever, so enjoy when you’re at JIS! Don’t be stressed too much about the grades; enjoy the school, the time, and the weather. Goodbye!

I’m a very indecisive person. I can’t even choose which ice cream flavour I want without spinning heads or tails. I have a very hard time picking things that are my favourite, but I know that you’re my favourite.

You walk with your head held high, you are unflustered when you are by yourself, and you are courteous in any company. You are the most endearing person I have ever met, and your kindness and willingness to help others make you an example for us all. [Your] smile [radiates] happiness and pride in who you are. It is inspiring to be around you, and the strength of your character shines through in every word you say.

I know you’ve been going through a really rough time the past couple [of] weeks with finding out about what happened and everything, but I just want to let you know that you are worth so much more than the person [you] put [yourself] out to be and you don’t deserve what happened to you. I love you and you are strong. Please don’t let yourself forget that.

I hate you. I hate the way you speak to me. I hate the way you look at me with those pretty dark eyes. I hate the way I can’t stop thinking about you. I hate how sick you make me with butterflies. I hate the way your laugh makes me smile. I hate [how you] listen to music instead of talking to me. I hate that you’re a good person. I hate how much I love you. I never liked that song, but the second you told me it was your favourite I listened to it on repeat and it became the best thing I’d ever heard. I’m in love with the idea of love. And my idea of love is you.

[Even] with both of our languages combined, there still wouldn’t be enough [words] to describe what you mean to me.

I love the way your eyes sparkle when you laugh and how your smile lights up a room. I love the way you make me feel like I am the only person in the world that matters. I love the way you understand me and accept me for who I am, flaws and all. Being with you is like a dream come true and I never want to wake up. I promise to always love and cherish you, to support you and to be there for you in good times and bad. I will love you now and forever.

Yo dude just [want to] say [you’re] one of the greatest friends I’ve ever had and have given me some absolute great advice on stuff in general. [You] have always had my back, and [are] one of the kindest [and] most caring people I have ever met. I love talking to you about Star Wars and arguing about Separatists vs the Republic haha. Also, you are easily one of the most talented [people] I know and your drawing skills are immaculate. Anyways bro, [thanks] for being such a great friend.

I have been friends with this person since June last year, and we have been as thick as thieves ever since. I appreciate her so much, and I hope she knows this… I will do anything for this girl!

Bro just [want to] say thank you for everything. You have had my back through so much and you are the goat for everything. Thank you so much for all the advice you gave me over the years (especially [in] grades 11 and 12). Thank you so much for everything and all your help with everything.

You are my better half, my ride or die, my soul mate. From exchanged glances from across the room, sharing a snack at second break, [to] knowing all my secrets, I love you. From making time in our chaos, to sharing clothes, and eating rice crispy treats on your kitchen counter. l love you completely, sincerely and platonically, I love you.

The reasons I love Them:  1) They are always around, for better or worse I’m not sure. 2) They make me laugh. 3) They have good taste in sarcastic brunettes. 4) We can talk about nothing for hours and we do. 5) We can talk about serious things when needed and we have. 6) They are my rock. 7) They are my ride-or-die. 8) I love them and all that entails.

To my dear friend, from the bottom of my heart… I love you so much. You bring so much inspiration and happiness into my life that I’m motivated to go to school, become a better person, and so much more I can’t put into words! Thank you for even just your presence alone. I am grateful [to] have such a supportive friend (like you <3). I finally found someone who understands me; someone who matches my energy. Since you’ve been around, I smile a lot more than I used to. I wish for us to be friends forever and I hope you know how special you are to me.

Thank you for being there for me and [for] understanding my personal space and feelings. It pains me to see how you convince yourself that you “aren’t a good friend” while I think not. I think you’re a great friend. People close to you should value how understanding you are and your honesty. I may not express it well, but I appreciate your company so much that I can’t describe it in words or any other language.

The first time I met you was in an elective class. I was planning to change it, but you stopped me from it. I surprisingly made my courage and talked to you, and somehow we bought lunch together. I just want to say that I’m really grateful to have a friend like you, and I hope we can be friends, even in the future.

Hi, you’re my best friend. Even though I can confidently say you’re smart every second of the day whenever I catch a glimpse of your PowerSchool grades, there are a few things I’ve never mentioned to you before. One of my favorite things about you is that you’re constantly nice to me. There have been tons of people in my life that have been mean to me, but I trust you so much. I would never expect you to gossip about me or judge me for a mistake I made. You also give me such great comfort, I have never felt as safe and relaxed with a person as I have with you. Even though I might not always mention it, I’m so thankful for you and you make every day a great day.

I wish I could tell this person who has been in my life for quite some time just how much they mean to me, not in a romantic way. We’ve been friends for a long time, and they’ve been by my side whenever I needed them. They make me laugh when I’m down and try their best to comfort me when I need it most. Although there were times we didn’t get along, we got through it, apologized, and promised not to do whatever caused the conflict again—[because] that’s what friends do. We stuck together through rough patches. I hope to stay beside this person, and I hope they know that if they need anything, they can always come to me.

Thank you for being such a kind and caring person. I love spending time with you because you can always bring joy into a bad situation and fill it with laughter. You have had my back ever since I met you and you never fail to make me smile. You are my comfort person, and I know that no matter how much time passes of us not seeing each other, we will always find our way back to each other. I believe that soulmates exist in friendships as well and that’s what you are to me. Thank you for always being there for me when I need someone to talk to. Don’t you dare change yourself because of somebody else’s opinion. Love you.

To my friend, how are you? I don’t ask that a lot but I’m worried. You don’t really say much, but I know there’s a thousand horrible things going on in your head. If I could, I’d tell you to just run away into the mountains so you’d never have to hurt again—but that’s not possible. I’ll help if you ask, just say so.

We goof around and get into trouble, we tease each other, and we have no tolerance for each other. But these seems to me that we stay with each other all the time, we know each other very well that we know the fun points of each other, and we concern and care for each other. I’m truly lucky to have you. I hope I can recall these days even when I grow old and cranky <3

I just wanted to take a moment to tell you how much I admire your kindness, generosity, and positive attitude. You’ve always been a great friend to me, and I’ve always been inspired by your ability to make others feel valued and appreciated. Your thoughtfulness and willingness to help others is truly remarkable and I am grateful to have you as a friend. You make the school a better place to be, and I am lucky to know you. Thank you for being an amazing person and for always being there for me.

This message is dedicated to a real one. Thank you for reminding me of the power that all of us have to do good. I was particularly inspired by [the] time you managed to save all the passengers in that bus that fell off a bridge into a river. It was so cool, and you didn’t even need to personally knit a sweater for each person to keep them warm, but you still did that just because you could. All kidding aside, this is dedicated to a friend of mine who has always managed to balance school, friendships and their own hobbies very well, I wish I had the same work ethic as you.

I have never been one to rely on others for anything. Whenever I face a problem, I rarely ask for help. When I’m struggling with my emotions, I keep them to myself. It is very hard for me to trust anyone. But when I’m with you, I finally feel safe. I know that whenever I’m with you, I can be who I really am. You’ve helped me through so much and you’re the reason that now, I smile more often. For that, I just wanted you to know that I am so lucky to have you as my best friend.

Hey, I’m your secret admirer. I thought you were kinda cute. Ever since the day I met you, I couldn’t take my eyes off you. The way you speak makes my heart flutter and seeing you walk alone makes me want to hold your hand. One day, I hope my prayers are answered for you are the love of my life. Please, go out with me.

Six months. A dreadful six months of just walking by each other on the way to our classes. The yearning hope that you will eventually talk to me is starting to become lost in my studies, my ambitions, and my hopelessness. The one class we had together last semester is now gone, and I cannot for the life of me talk to someone I like. Although, ‘like’ is too weak of a word for the emotions I feel towards you. Just eye contact, just walking by eachother, just social media, it drives my mind to run 1000 miles per hour.

To the boy who I walk past every day and feel far too scared to wave to: I wonder if you realise how beautiful you are. We’ve spoken once or twice, and each time we do I hope you’re laughing at my jokes the way I’m laughing at yours. To be honest, I don’t know how funny you really are, but I think it’s the fact the tacky jokes are coming from YOU. I’m hoping that one day I’ll build up the guts to talk to you. Until then, I hope you know that there’s someone on the sidelines of your life who notices your smile, your laugh, your style, your hair—and your personality that shines so brightly, I can see it from all the way over here.

So you know that one person who you’ve had like two or three actual conversations with but you still end up falling for them? Yeah, that’s you to me. And you know that person who people will go “why him?” Or “ew so many better options,” [or] “he’s not even that cute.” I [don’t] think any of that matters when I see you. I love it when we randomly catch eyes from two different places in the schoolyard, like 20 feet away. Even if you don’t stare at me, I’m definitely trying [not to] stare at you. Even if people think I could do better because “he’s not even that good-looking,” you’re so nice and sweet, and I just wish I could talk to you without having that crushing feeling of butterflies in my stomach. From the two conversations we’ve had, I can tell that you’re funny, kind, supportive and honestly… [you’re] everything I’ve wanted but I just can’t talk to you…

Dear moon, when the sun sets over the skies and the moment you take over the sun, your light is the brightest in the dark. I spend many sleepless nights waiting for your moonlight to seep through my blinds, calling me out to see you. Climbing onto my roof, I wish I could tell you more about my beautiful lover; her smile, her hair, her glasses, her way of loving. It’s as if she dips her love in honey and pours each drop on me, she is soft, sweet, and completely selfless. I somehow know that when I am with her she handles my erratic feelings gently, with patience and care, like she’s holding a newborn kitten. She is the light of my life, just like how you enlighten my nights.

When I am with you, time flies so fast that the day feels so short. Everything in the world is beautiful. It really seems like a lie. In this world of lies, I cannot believe that you are in front of me and that I can always smile just by looking at you. You are my blissful dream and I want to live in that dream for good and all.

It’s not fair. How is it fair that whenever I look at you, my heart flutters to the point of breaking free, and you don’t know? How is it fair that I become aware of the slightest movement I make when you’re in the room, and you don’t know? How is it fair that these lyrics, these poems, these highlighted sentences, are all about you, and you don’t know? How is it fair that I remember every word you’ve ever said to me, every moment of the slightest eye contact, and they fill me to the brink with giddiness, and yet you don’t know? Maybe it will never be fair that you are screaming in my head day and night, yet I am barely a whisper in yours. But I do believe that one day, somehow, somewhere, somewhat, you will look back on me, on all our interactions, with the same heart-eye glasses that I see you.

I think back and wonder about what we could’ve been. You chose to spend time with me, get to know me, and laugh with me. You were always happy, always so cheerful, and laughed a lot. You had nice eyes, nice freckles, and a kind heart. I know I didn’t take advantage of the time I had with you, and I let you slip away so quickly. I hope to say “hi” just to mend the spark we once had—or maybe just a small friendship between us—just enough to know there is peace. It’s hard hiding feelings for someone I liked for so long, it’s hard knowing we could never be something anymore, and it’s hard reminiscing the blushes you gave me. It’s okay, I know you are happy now; You two seem to be happy. If only I wasn’t so shy to tell you how I felt last year, we could’ve been happy.

I could sing ‘Those Eyes’ by New West directly to you, but the worst part is that it’ll never faze you.

A class I used to dread became one I looked forward to ever since you moved into it.

This community is one that I’m thankful to be in. [Of] all the schools I’ve been to, never before have I seen any community as welcoming and as kind as The Dragon Community. So, I just want to say to this community, you’re all awesome.

No words can ever explain the gratefulness and happiness I feel having you [as] a part of my life. I can never imagine my life without you as you are always by my side, no matter what, loving me unconditionally. You have always been the reason I carry on with my life happily even until now, and I want to thank you so much for it my whole life. Thank you so much for everything, and I love you the most in this world <3

You will never know how much I think about you, or how much I love you. Saying ‘I love you’ and that stuff is awkward between us. We don’t really say that to each other. But I wanted to tell you this: even if we live far apart, you still remain my favorite person. I appreciate every aspect of your personality. I admire your bright attitude. I admire your confidence. I admire how you can accept your wrongs and apologize. I admire your thoughtfulness, your humor, and many others. I even love your carefree attitude. You make me light-hearted whenever I talk to you. Burdens in my heart magically disappear. Your humor always makes me laugh. The [times] I spent with you are my most valuable memories. Lastly, I want to say this. Thank you for listening to what I don’t say. You will always be my favorite person.

A simple feeling that I can’t seem to shake. I walk through this familiar scape with flowers blooming and ‘Boy with Luv’ lingering in the back of my head. This girl commemorated my memory like the lyrics of ‘Attention.’ But [the] last time I checked, women angered me, K-pop sickened me, Jungkook was a fake and flowers were for pansies. Look who made me change my heart again, the same being from the last four years and counting. But I just [want to] say, do you like Messi?